insecurity

i am feeling insecure... very very very very insecure... it doesnt help when u keep saying i am fat... every week i am subjected to ur qning.. did i lose wgt? did i do my exercises???

it doesnt help when u kept reminding me tat all the gals are skinner den me... it doesnt help at all

i am juz getting more n more insecure.. i hate u... i so so so hate u!i am so tired of all this... y did u come back for me... am i really the one u wan? i am really tired.. i wan to be the happy linda again...i wan to feel confident again.. i am again losin my confidence...

i already managed to build up my confidence when i left u... u were the one who ask me back...if my wgt affects u so much.. u shldnt ask me back... i am tired v tired... v tired of being so consious of wat i am eating... my confidence level is down to zero again thanks to u.. i hate u i hate u i hate u... y are we even together...:(

y did u ask me back.... y did u propose to me....

WHY???????

am i the one u really love?

when i drink and i start to cry.. i definately noe something is wrong.. something is wrong now.. i juz feel so insecure and i hate this feeling... again.. y did u ask me back????? y u wan to propose to me.. i dun understand all this...

y cant love me simple.. y cant i juz love u and u juz love me..

i definately noe i am NOT ugly.. juz abit on the plump side.. not fat.. juz very huggable size...IT NOT MY BLOODY FAULT TAT ALL THE GALS NOWADAYS WEIGHT 40+ AND ME 50+.... if tat was ur issue wif me.. dun find me BACK...i really hate u for making me feel like this... i juz wan to get so drunk tat i juz fall aslp wifout thinking.. but FUCK i am semi sober.. and i hate it...i hate this feeling... i hate crying... i so so hate this...i hate u i hate u I HATE U... go away and leave me alone!!!!!

if i am not someone u wan to love... go away and leave me ALONE... i cant handle all these.. my heart is weary.. v weary... so tired... so so tired....

previously i nv felt like this... i felt happier... very much happier...although there was no happy outcome.. i felt much happier... my confidence level soared like nv b4... wif u... everything plummet down... straight down...

i juz wan my due happiness...i dun feel it from u anymore... zip zero.. ZEROOO....if u dun feel i am the SKINNY TYPE of gals u wan... juz leave me... i am so tired.... i am comfortable in my own skin.. U ARE THE ONLY ONE NOT COMFORTABLE WIF WHO I AM NOW...

DAMN U FOR MAKING ME FEEL THIS WAY.. I FREAKIN HATE ALL THIS FEELINGS.. IT SUCKS BIG TIME BIG BIG BIG TIME.