3rd week of Oct!!!

19th Oct

Well... is my off day as i tink sat was deepavali... tat idiot dun wan to take leave to acc me so i rotted at home... haiz.. :(... anyway... i got round to opening the pad-like marshmellows! very nice.. but a tad sweet.. there was a coating of sugar aro the marshmellow.. believe me... sg do not have such unique stuff! hehehehe...

actually.. the packaging... really look like a pad.. :X

i went grocery shopping as i dun wan to rot at home toooo much.. abit pathetic i noe... :(


some self-indulgence at bodyshop... bought their new range of perfume and body wash... pretty nice scent.... *stares at her perfume collection and wonders when can she actually finish using all of them!*

21st Oct

Went to collect my free mini speakers (tink it was upon signing up of the HSBC credit card)... pretty cute!

While waiting for pearl and the other jie meis to arrive at PS... did some more self-indulgence.... JL was having a 20% sale.. so i bought the Loreal Ultra-Volume mascra and 2 Canmake nail polish.. i totally love Canmake glittery nail polishes! :)

24th Oct

went go-karting at JB... hmmm ... actually it was the guys who went go karting and the gals hang aro looking after the stuff and playing wif the animals there... there were many doggies and kittens there! was happily playing with this lil kitten... apparently they like to eat arhmm snacks.. hahaha... tis one is really adorable... will wan to cuddle up and play!

This happened when i was dangling some stuff in front of the kitten and it wants to play.. cute rite!

welll.... the damage tat he caused at the plc... apparently he accidentally hit the side and the arhmm i tink bumper fell off the kart.. hahahaha... :XThe candy tat ms pearl intro for my phelmy cough.. it did work quite well... costs abt RM4 and is NOT available in SG!

25th Oct

went to buy the wedding gift for the couple! cute rite...

is there something wrong wif me??

i am beginning to worry abt myself.. I am getting too emotional for my own good... i dun not noe wat is happening? is it insecurity?? i really dunoe... i feel like crying for no good reason... wat is happening to me....

i was nv this fragile b4... until tat incident... from then on... it bcome like tis.. i was reduced to being a crybaby... i wan to curl up in someone's arms and sob my heart out... can some1 tell me wat is happening to me... i really dun wan to be like this...

at tis pt... i really dun noe who to turn to... i dun wan to be analyzed and being told wat to do and wat not to do... i juz wan to curl up and cry now... i really dunoe y my heart hurts so bad...

mayb i juz wan more of his concern.. more of his attn... i dunoe... at times i juz wan to leave... far far away from him... or even never to noe of his existance... y am i feeling like tat....

am i losing it?? my sanity?? i dunoe... tis is scary.. very scary... i lost all motivation to do anything... i hate this feeling... i am really feeling so down now...