is there something wrong wif me??

i am beginning to worry abt myself.. I am getting too emotional for my own good... i dun not noe wat is happening? is it insecurity?? i really dunoe... i feel like crying for no good reason... wat is happening to me....

i was nv this fragile b4... until tat incident... from then on... it bcome like tis.. i was reduced to being a crybaby... i wan to curl up in someone's arms and sob my heart out... can some1 tell me wat is happening to me... i really dun wan to be like this...

at tis pt... i really dun noe who to turn to... i dun wan to be analyzed and being told wat to do and wat not to do... i juz wan to curl up and cry now... i really dunoe y my heart hurts so bad...

mayb i juz wan more of his concern.. more of his attn... i dunoe... at times i juz wan to leave... far far away from him... or even never to noe of his existance... y am i feeling like tat....

am i losing it?? my sanity?? i dunoe... tis is scary.. very scary... i lost all motivation to do anything... i hate this feeling... i am really feeling so down now...

2nd week of Oct!!

12th Oct

Muhahaha... bought some snacks from Candy Empire! Muhahaha... (sees my fat jumping in happiness.. -.-") The potato grills totally rocks... super yummy!! hehe... But for the Tiny Teddy... it was unlike my childhood kind already!!! sucks big time.. so sad lo... haiz...the jaffa cakes and tim tam ROCKS!! YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY!!! serious.. no wonder so many ppl go gaga over them! hehehe

wee... the pushcart is back again!! with some loots from HK for us!! bought a toga dress and a grey lacy cardigan...total spendings - 40 bucks...

a close up of the cardigan.. really really sweet! hehehe

Bought some accessories from Diva.. totally loving them!! i really love the bracelets!! hvt had the opportunity to use the necklace yet!

13th Oct

Bought some yummy dresses during lunch...wanted to try the strawberry yoghurt smoothie and papaya milk drink! hehe.. pretty nice! hehe

Went for some retail therapy! haha.. bought a dress and 2 tops.. hehehe.. totally love the dress!! but very hard to iron.. haiz.. still very wrinkled now!

magazines magazines magazines!! hehehe totally hearts the Jill Stuart makeup pouch that came with Spring.. very very nice!! hehe

The inside of the pounch... hehehe i really like this! hehehe

15th Oct

Ms Poh Ling back from HK!! hahaha... she got us each a cutsy mickey mouse keychain! quite cute.. but currently no use for it.. haiz...

16th Oct

not feeling well.. was on MC...hacking my lungs out! haiz.. nua at home for sometime b4 going out to the doc... came back wif bodyshop loots.. -.-" the new spa range.. muhaha.. pretty nice... a scrub with a body shower oil... use the UOB card can get the mini souffle! and the nice sales lady threw in 2 samples of the deep slp spray!

The medi i was given made me so drowsy!! haiz.. i kept falling aslp in front of the laptop! initally mr. stefan wan to pick me up to go for coffee wif law and den for law's farewell.. in the end i told him to call me when they are done wif coffee... i zzzz to 6pm... ate dinner... and zz a wee bit more.. stefan called at 7plus pm and say okie.. i can pick u in 30mins time.. -.-" i have not bath and get prepared lo... no pre-warning de!!! he said.. so late liao.. i thot u are dressed up liao!!! wt* hahahaha....

i ended up taking my own sweet time and rch clarke quay at 11pm.. :X... they say i machim the star for the nite.. hahaha... opps...

due to the medi i was super low profile tat nite.. law and junie keep asking me.. are u okie.. y so quiet.. come come drink more! -.-"

i kept naggin and said i was hungry by 12plus am.. hahaha.. they all -.-" and said okok.. leave liao...rched McD... and i said.. i not hungry leh.. how... :X... all the eyes stared daggers at me.. hahaha... law: hungry also u say de... now not hungry also u say! -.-" hahahaha....

ended up sharing a nuggets meal wif ms junie.. hehehe.. hsh finally at abt 2.30am...

17th Oct

zoom zoom... go karting! JB again lo.. hehehe... they went go karting.. while me and angeline stared at the bags.. hahaha...din do much though... bought choco bubble gum.. very unique rite? hehehehe

1st week of October!!

5th Oct

weee.... snacks attack!! haiz... now u all noe y i cant lose wgt fast enuff...
:( .... i juz eat n eat n eat! haiz ..:(... i really do love snacks wif tons of MSG... haiz...

This came in the mail today!!! The benefits of being a Watsons' Card Member!! hehehe... it came with a mini sample of the latest Colgate! haha

And And And!!! a $5 voucher (off from purchases $30 and above!) Dun u love being a Watsons Card Member??!!

Bought some cutsy hair clips too (3 for $5) muhahaha... i noe.. i am hopeless.. like to buy those things which i tink i will use mayb 1-2 times den squirrel them away in my vanity boxes! hahaha

6th Oct

Headed to Raffles City during lunch as i was tinking of looking aro for a dinner dress for ms pearl's wedding at the end of the mth.. nothing really caught my eye though...

i ended up at Marks & Spencer... cos they are having a sale! ended up leavin the store with 4 bras and 2 cookies!! i totally love the pink lacy bra!! muhahaha... the rest are strapless bras... soso effect only.. hate the silicon lining!! my skin itches and turns red!! no choice.. no many brands have my size for these bras.. sadness lo..! :(

i totally love mark & spencer cookies!! i rem in my 2nd job... our pantry budget was like no restrictions and my acct manager LOVES mark & spencer cookies.. so we always bought like tons and stock up our pantry... i dare say our pantry at tat time can fight with those at Exxon and those major US labels in SG! (cos i heard their pantry damn well-stocked too!)

Bought a black frilly tank top too!! 10 buckaroos only.. cheap cheap.. but now still sitting in my wardrobe unworn... hahaha

8th Oct

Bought this ribbon fringe thingie.. (and it doesnt work very well lo...) dunoe is my hair too thick (which is kinda of impossible... dropping hair liao.. :(... ) or it is just plain lousy.. but it is just cute to look at!

9th Oct

I can shop during lunchtime de!! hahaha bought a top for 10 bucks!! cute rite... pink and ribboned! hehe... initally wanted to get yellow.. but yellow was dirty!!! haiz... so bought the same color as ms cindy... (todate - worn it liao.. quite cute... hehehe)

Whilst waiting for the 2 slowpokes to come to Raffles City (cos they wanna check out the Mark and Spencer bras)... i ended up shopping again! haiz.. 2 cutsy Rilakkuma files and a set of pop up art pens (still havt got the hang of it... watever i do it still looks horrible.. !!!)

well... the main purpose of meeting my 2 slowpokes is to shop.. and we all got something to bring back home! hehehe i got 2 dress from zstyle...lacy lacy de! hahahaha both look kinda of the same but they have some differences la.. hahaha... (i wore the black one for my dnd.. haiz.. i feel sooo fat lo.. sadness)

Outing wif my gals...

Hehe... this one lagi back dated.. we met up on 21st Aug... to chill... we din noe where to go and ended up at Meritus Manadarin (did i spell it correctly?)...

There was some renov going on and we got abit lost trying to look for their lounge! hahaha... muz take lift to the 5th flr.. den walk across another lobby to ANOTHER lift to go up to the 38th flr... haha...it was quite comical to see a batch of gals walking up and down to look for the lifts!

The place was pretty cozy.. we managed to grab a good seat! The chairs was super comfy and the svc was pretty good (well it varies... we went back a few times and the nice nice waitress who serve the 1st time was not there! :(..... )

we ordered the arhmmm up-sized drinks.. pretty valued for money... the alcohol was well enuff to give u a light-headed buzz.. they definately din stinged on the alcohol.. some light snacks was served as well (refills were given too!)

Pretty nice plc to chill and have H2H talks... i tinnk that nite.. we chilled till 2am.. (it was closing at 2am anyway).. and moved over to arhmmm.. the taxi stand of Paragon and continued our conversations to 4am... i was so stoned the nx day!

Thank You CLEO!!!!

:X... i noe i am very slow wif my posts.. already nov and i still like in sept-oct posts! :X

anywayz... i totally hearts CLEO!!! i received 6 SIX letters from them.. initally i thought there was some error cos i nv received six letters from CLEO contests b4.. normally is one at a time!

the pic below was taken when i was on my way to collect my lovely prizes! hehehe.. the only thing is i have to take a cab to the location to get the prizes... till now.. i do not noe wat buses goes there... and can only grab a cab from tiong bahru mrt!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... my prizes!! nice a not...

- an ice-creamy lotion

- minty moisture milk

- Benefit Badgal plum mascra

- Canmake lig rouge

- Loreal mascra

- Kerastase intense hairmask...

i feel so loved by CLEO!!! :)

Last Week of Sept and a Brand New Oct!

28th Sept

Retail therapy again... was supposed to do my eyebrows only.. but but.. there was a 20% sale at mondo... haiz...but these are really nice!

I pretty like this flowery wedges!
I actually went in bcos of this pair.. really like it.. very similar to the ones i bought at bugis!

i love this gold/beige wedges!!! super comforty and easy to match!!

29th Sept

headed to Daiso at Vivo to erhmm do some retail therapy.. :X intially i din managed to get much stuff but as i walk on.. more n more cutsy stuff.... bought some lacy stickers... diy jelly.. jelly moulds... glitter glue... hair accessories.. bling bling stickers.. haiz...

2nd Oct

Met up wif the gals for the laneige sale!! hehehe... bought a birthday card for Angel... i love tatty teddy cards!!!

My loots!!! i went 2 rounds... one during lunchtime... *i totally nv regret going so early* and the other round wif ting and winnie... the sale was fablous!!! i bought one moisturizer @ $20, the liquid foundation @ $15, sample size of cleasing milk and sunscreen @ 10 for $5, 2 set of limited edition eyeshadow @ $15 ea, foundation @ $15, 2 lipglosses @ 2 for $15, pressed powder @ $15, refill @ $10, concealer @ 2 for $15, strawberry masks and water masks @ $2 ea!! tell me cheap a not!!!

the palettes!! i gave this to angel.. hehehe... really very nice!!

the snowflake one!!! hehehe for myself! *yes i noe i have tons of makeup... :X*

the lipglosses!! very nice!! one passed to Angel also...

i totally love their packaging.. tink is last year's packaging!! snowflake design... and i totally hearts their liquid foundation!!! hehehe

the pressed powder! pinky!!

All the skincare!! hehehe

After the shopping.. we headed to Coffee Club @ taka for our late late dinner... followed by drinks at our latest chill out addiction... mertius manadrain... hahaha

4th week of Sept (and a v sad one at tat) & VS Spree # 1

21st - 22nd Sept

stayed over at his plc... :( ... very paranoid.... haiz...

23rd Sept

back to work.. so xian... bought some groceries as my parents went abroad again! haiz.. everyone going abroad except me!! the furthest i went this year is malaysia!! Meet ms jun for dinner as the VS loots are here!!! we makan at xin wang.. tink everytime i meet her.. we eat there.. i dunoe y also.. hahaha
My loots my loots from VS!!! totally hearts their new range of scents!!! damn nice lo.. and all so pink!!! bought them in sets of lotion and shower gels!!! Bought 2 lip balms, 1 lipstick and 1 heidi klum glitter eyeliner!!! damages = 70 bucks!!! but totally worth it!!! hehehe

24th Sept

Went to taka kinokuniya to do some retail therapy... Bought Can Can mag for the Jill Stuart bag and 2 copies of Lofficel for the eyeshadows... the eyeshadows are really pigmented!!

Totally hearts the bag... for the next 2 wkends i lug this bag wherever i went!

Bought the new range of Essential Shampoo... Mic C kept telling me the scent is great!

26th Sept

After spending Fri nite at his plc... he dropped me off at home as he has a company meeting to attend... i went out to stock up my mini pantry again!! Alcohol!! hehehe

i guess when one is very upset.. not much retail therapy can be done... haiz...

3rd week of Sept & Forever21 Spree # 1 !!

14th Sept

Stocked up on my yummy snacks again!!! *looks at the weighting machine and sees my wgt bouncing up and up!!! :(* i concluded i really love salty stuff!! the combos are totally great! i can eat like 4 packs a day!! haiz...

I bought this bag from those pushcarts stuffs at Amara... the owner damn cute de lo... managed to bargain from 29 to 20... hahaha... cos i bought wif Cindy... so they gave us some %! totally love this lo.. can be a sling bag or a normal shoulder bag!! love the chain chain! hahaha...

15th Sept

Wee.... My forever21 Spree Loots are here!!! but lesser and lesser pple participate in sprees liao.. :(

My loots! 2 hairbands, a ring and a flower pin!! hehehe... i was at tat pt of time tat i loved hairbands *but hor... nv got aro to wearing them... :X*

I totally hearts this ribbon hairband!! very nice!! but hor.. the ribbon sits right on top of the heart and its pretty big... a tad afraid will look like some weirdo... hahaha

And my loots from the 10 dollar online blogspot reached!! pretty fast service ... hmm... the clothes looks at least 80% as the pics in the online shop.. so still not tat bad... but hor.. me a tad fat... need to lose some more wgt to look good in them!!!

There was this SaSa fair at hougang mall and i picked up all the nail accessories at a total of 4 bucks!! (3 pkts for $1 ma) hahaha... like my parents always say... i got enuff nail accessories, nail polish to open my own nail place.. :X

16th Sept

Rem the pushcart which i bought my bag from... we went back to pick up some nice clothings!! hehehe.. one dress and a top @ $32 .... the dress very girly lo... duno i will really wear a not but i really like it.. hahaha .. even Cindy bought one pc too...

17th Sept

Bought my contact lenses.... moolah fly away again.. haiz...hopefully this brand will be better for my dry eyes!!

i bought another cardigan for $10 from her again!! haha.. her stuff are pretty cheap and nice!

18th Sept

Again bought another dress from her!! hehehe.. this cost $13 *it was all so cheap partially bcos she wants to clear the stock at home... hehehe*

There was an official meetup for the xiong dis and jie meis for Pearl's and Fraser's wedding! whilst waiting for mr lawrence to pick me to the location.. i shop while waiting.. *it was a long long wait* totally random shopping... some snacks... a cutsy notebook... 3 cutsy pens *i like to buy cute pens but i always dun bear to use them!* and a cutsy nail clipper.... yes and i like cutsy stuff... hahaha

Bought some stuff from the Jap DIY store... some craft glue, double sided tape and 2 cutsy foam door stopper *which dun work super well cos if there is any huge wind... the door still will open!* but well they were cutsy enuff la.. for me to continue using... hahaha

This concludes my shopping trips in the 3rd week... hahaha