oh god.... i am so rotting at home.... i feel like a slug.... i juz dun wanna move... is weird... i feel so unmotivated.... :(.... dun really wanna go out... mayb cos i was tinking of the my money situation... it is so pathetic rite now... broke broke broke.... :( freaking pathetic...
i was out buying some cny goodies... *on him* haha... i window shop abit... i realized... i dun have any mood to buy any of the stuff.... cos i tink i wan to save my $$ for rainy days or outings wif my dearies... but it juz felt freakin weird tat i din get anything.. haiz
another note... i REALLY NEED TO LOSE WGT... like freaking soon... my dearie wedding in mar.. so is my bro's... oh god.... how how how... been joggin... doing some exercise here and there... trying to reduce my carbo intake... BUT whenever i am moody i start munching... this is so shitty... :( .... i noe he is pretty disappointed in me... he tried various way to get me to exercise... haiz... shit... i am feeling like a failure rite now... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :'((((
i guess i am really very moody rite now... when i booze...if in a good mood... i juz get a lil high.. bad mood.. i will start to tear... and i am teaaring rite now.. shit shit shit... no wonder winnie dearie was saying... she worries tat i will break down cos i am not working rite now... to her... it is even worse den juz breaking up... i kind of understand wat she meant by tat... cos i am feeling worse den juz breaking up... :(((
side track : i kinda of love clazziquai... cool music... their music playing rite now... hear this now michelle quek blog some time back... den i hunt aro for their music... mostly quite cheery tunes.. BUT in korean.. some in eng though... haha
when am i gonna get a job... haiz... i am feeling so bad rite now.. :(.... so insecure tat i am huggin my toy giraffe to slp now... haha... btw.. it is really cute.. purple in colour wif a cheery smile on its face...
sighzzzzzz
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