*dang* ******* has logged in....
seems like whenever i see her log into msn... at times... i will have this overwhelming feeling of sadness.... i do not know if one day will she see my blog a not... but i juz wanna pen my thots down...
her story is the typical one... husband fool aro outside and she forgave him... during the long process she fought long and hard wif herself and her hubby... she threw temptums... she broke dowm numerous time... she drowned her sorrows in alcohol... i see also heart pain...
husband claims she pushed him to this... she was too "big woman" making him feel "small".... she was too bossy... she was too this too tat... she restricted him... blablablablabla... but to me... is juz excuses... u wan to fool aro den say so la...
he told her he is confused... he loved tat bitch.. she din mind he is married... blablablabla... oh god... stupid leh... of cos dun mind u married la.. u spend money on me.... shower love and attn on me... i care a not.. kuku head de la.. haiz..
she struggled... she nearly gave up... she was confused and din noe wat to do... at one point... she was even hostile to me... i guess she felt i was relaying her thots to her hubby... i was of cos upset... v upset infact... but... i still have to forgive tat... it was the situation tat caused all this...
she gave him the ulimatium.... the bitch or her.... after arhhmmm long long time... he said her...
for a couple of mths after tat incident.. all was fine and dandy... he acc her... told her his whereabouts... told her who he is meeting... blablabla.. shower her wif attn....
recently... everything started again... dun ans calls... mia.... reject calls... i dun understand lo... he is the one who said wan to salvage this marriage... yet he behave like tat... i dun really noe the full story but i only noe currently this is how is behaving...
she again... back to her worrying and miserable ALONE at home again...
this got me tinking... is this how a marriage shld be?? this is worrying u noe... i do blog hop... another one is abt this pretty cute gal and her bf who abuses her and cheats on her.. yet she forgives him again n again...
sighz...
i once told dear... last time relationship seems very much more simple den now... he say... last time pple value relationship more den now... pple now more selfish.. wan the best for themselves...
sighz...
so how do u define love...
are u willing to forgive a cheating partner??
are u willing to forgive some1 u love who abuses u (be it physically... emotionally or verbally?) again n again?
are u willing to love some1 who does not love u back?
are u willing to love some1 who puts u on the lower end of his priorities?
my dear once say i am v selfish in love and proceeds to tell me his version of HIS GREAT AND MIGHTY love... hahaha... the gal b4 me.. was pretty young... so... naturally more playful and flirty.... i guess she cheated on him b4.. and he forgave her.. something along this line... but he say i cant handle this forgiving part...
oh god.. of cos la... when u are wif me... attached to me... u call me ur gf... i kinda of expect u to be faithful to me rite... -.-" den how... be like some others are ... in "open" relationships??? might as well be single and have all the fun u wan rite.... -.-"
i heard abt another even weirder couple... he was a vendor of one of my ex-collegue.... he was pretty witty and kinda of hit on her... but she told me there is a RING on the Fourth finger..... so i say... ask if he is married... and lo behold... he IS MARRIED... and he proceeds to tell her... " oh me and my wife are soulmates.. but we have an open relationship... so.... if anything leads to another... we are both cool wif it... "
my 1st thot was... y in the hell did u get married instead??? haiz.. can co-habit right... since both so OPEN... sighz... is this how our future relationships will be like??
so how do u define love??
i am actually pretty confused right now... has pple confused love wif... stability? comfort zone? juz a warm body in bed???
sighz....
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