Weekends

I am beginning to dread the weekends... every sunday u will grill me abt my wgt loss... ya... i noe i din put in much effort... but i dun like the feeling it gives me... we always quarrel over this... u always give me the feeling tat how i look matter so much to u... i am not so big fat lump... juz tat a few kg off will look better for me.... hey i noe tat too.. i noe if i lose the few kg i will nicer in clothes... but the feeling u gave me is like it so bloody impt...

mayb the fact tat u urself train pretty intensely... so fitness is very impt to u...but u are making me v stressed... when im stressed i eat more... when i eat more i bcome even more stressed cos i noe watever wgt i lose... it came back again... i hate being so emo u noe... my gfs thot i going crazy or under depression u noe... they are the ones who kept reassuring me.... tat i still looked okie...

i dun like the feeling u give me u noe... u were still disturbing me today abt how come i not excited to see u on wkends... i am actually but whenever i tink abt sun nites i bcome unhappy again.. cos u will grill me abnt my wgt...

i really hate jogging.... i noe u always tell me everyone also dun like to exercise... is juz for health sake tat pple exercise... but if u dun enjoy wat u doing how to have the motivation to do it?

i really dunoe... can i juz behave like a cat and lay down wif my back facing the world and curl up wif my tail hiding my face... i am tired also...