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you said...mayb u acted like tis cos u have a phobia... u are afraid tat u will lose ur freedom...

you said... mayb mayb u are afraid of getting married...

you said you said... EVERYTHING IS U SAID DE...

you said... u will change everything abt urself juz to be back wif me...

you said...u are willing to give up everything juz to have one more chance wif me...

you said... u juz need one chance to prove to me tat u are wat i need in this life...

everything is U SAY DE...

it hurts very badly...how am i supposed to respond to tat...

after u said tat... u tell me u going for lunch den logged off...u said not to worry... u still love me and still v much wan to be wif me...

y everything is u said de... can u explain to me...

i shld be the one who is more scared n worried...my fiance who propose to me barely a year ago is tellin me all these... a guy who i spent nearly 8 years wif....suddenly have cold feet and worries abt his own freedom...

since when i spot check on u... do i call u every freakin day to ask wat u doing and who u are wif... i juz wan ur wkends to be wif me... is it too much to ask... i only meet u on wkends... now.. wif meetings on alt sat at work.. i end up wif only 1/2 a day on sat and sun... wat more u wan from me

my heart hurts v badly... how u wan me to believe in ur words anymore...

wat if one day.. u tell me.. u love someone else... wat if one day u tell me u dun love me anymore and wan to be alone....wat u wan me to do..

jump down a bldg and vanish from ur life?

i am v emotionally weak... u already noe...u were the one who ask me back again n again...everything is u said de... EVERY SINGLE FREAKING THING IS U SAY DE....

i really feel like giving up...my heart is v confused and it feels so broken tat i dunoe how to start piecing the pieces back....i am still crying..

you said... the tears tat i dropped will only be tears of joy....all those smses and emails i still have...den y am i tearing out of sadness and heartbreak...

you said... u tell me all these is to tell me ur feelings.. not to quarrel... i appreciate the honesty... but... it really brings a great fear to my heart... cos i feel...i am living my life based on how u feel at the moment..

i really wan to erase the whole slate... totally erase everything...can i press pause and rewind back to when i was 19... erase everything all the memories we had... erase watever feelings i will have for u... erase even meeting up wif u...

my heart really aches v badly... i dun to cry n cry n cry...every day and nite...