Ban MEEEE

Sighz... someone pls ban me from buying stuff

- makeup *i am told i can open a makeup store already... but i have seen those on cozy cot forum is like at least 5 times more den me... hehehe... so after seeing their stash... i feel a wee bit better*

- bodycare products *i am a sucker for nice smelling lotion... from bodyshop... VS.... crabtree n evelyn...Sugarbaby.... even johnson n johnson.... i have it... sighz...*

- skincare products *mine are normally not v high end products... bodyshop... anna sui... biotherm... faceshop and skin food.... hahaha....*

- nail products *my mum juz commented... u can open ur own manicure & pedicure shop.. :X*

- perfume!!! *thanks to the luxasia sale.... i have tons of perfumes... plus tons from bodyshop and victoria's secret... -.-*

- clothes * i have 3 wardrobes and 2 long containers.. enuff said.. :X*

- lingerie... *i am a sucker for pretty and lacy lingerie.... cotton on are cute and nice and darn super cheap... la senza lacy lingerie are to die for.... juz kill me pls*

- HEELS.... *sighz i juz bought one pair AGAIN today.... i noe my collection is not a lot... - an evergrowing collection of 70+ heels, sandals, pumps and flats - but still my family tells me... i have only 1 pair of feet to wear them... hahaha*

y am i still spending money when i owe dar and bro money!!! haiz.... *bangs her head on the table*

Continution of the Tous Bag

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Hi Linda

Me and XXXX had a bad quarrel yesterday, I think it not worth it, to jeopardise OUR relationship over a BAG.


The reason I am asking for the bag from you after 3 years is because….
When I was doing the gallery for my house (the one next to the store room)

I browse through the pictures and post cards from Spain and a lot of fond memory comes into my mind.
When my spain frens was in town this month, they shared with me that they had move out of that town
Thereby I know even if I can go back to Spain , I won’t be able to go back to that town again.
The bags was bought from that town
Spain is also the country your XXXX proposed to me.
It was also our first long travel trip.
Thereby this bag really holds a lot lot of memory for me.

I know you like the bag too, but I sincerely hope you can release it to me; as a belated marriage gift or very early birthday gift to me.
I promise I take super good care of it just like you do.

I dun want to use fight and quarrel to take back the bag. This bag supposes to hold sweet memories.
It supposes to be a joyful thing. I dun want to end up hating the bag.

This will be my last time asking from you. I hope you can give it a good though.
Not need to give me an answer immediately

XXXX =)
Let not allow a bag to affect our relationship.

UnquoteX

sighz.... this was sent last friday.... i immediately flared up... i dun understand.. this is weird... y cant u take no as an ans... y u insist on getting it?? y are ur reasons so diff from my bro?? i really really dun understand...

i ask so my gfs on this situation... wat they wld do... let's juz say of the 4 i told.... only 1 say gv her la.... but reason being... u gv her liao she will be pai seh on her own behaviour towards u... hahaha.... the rest was tinking wat is HER REAL REASON behind all these? i also dunoe and i guess i will nv noe... cos i dun wan to ask her...

i guess to me... is a bag... a gift from my bro... i dun see a need to gv u wat my bro gv me.... so how... nx time watever my bro gv me u wan back? stating for memories??? pls do reflect.... a gift is a gift.... to me... it is RUDE to insist on getting it back... i thot my bro made it clear to u... but oh well... no comments... she is still my SIL... i cant change tat fact...

actually she is not tat bad... at least she does take gd care of my bro.. cooks for him... juz this issue made me hopping mad... sighz...

i hope in FUTURE there will be NO MORE requests to get the bag back... PLEASE dun make me flare up over this RIDICULOUS issue again....

Appreciation

Damn..... damn damn damn...

wah liao... my bro gave me this tous bag from spain... this brand is like the country's branded la... one of a kind thingie... my da sao yesterday ask me can buy from me a not... gv me some crap reason say got sentimental value... *she herself got one tous bag also*

i ask my bro abt it juz now... he say cos i dun seem to appreciate the gift cos i dun use it often so they feel they wan to take it back..... wat crapz reason is that?

i dun use it AS OFTEN AS U LIKE means i dun appreciate... sorry... but tat is juz a DAMN crappy reason....

it seems like the two of u are not AFRAID that i will get offended and in return... U tell me tat u are OFFENDED cos i DIN USE IT AS OFTEN AS U LIKE...

FYI... i did use... juz tat u nv notice it... cos by the time i get home... u will either be still out or holed up in ur room... now.. u are married and living wif ur wife... so do u get to see i got use the bag a not?

AND I ONLY WORK HERE FOR less den 2 MTHS and SHE GOES AND OBSERVE WAT BAG i use everyday??!!!!

lameness... tat was wat one of my frd said..
i will get angry too... tat was wat another gf said...
it seems childish.... another remark made...

u urself shld very well noe my horrible temper... i flare up VERY easily... pls BEAR IN MIND.... bcos she is UR WIFE... i am giving her face by keeping quiet thru out the whole one sided conversation by her...

i really dunoe how to face this issue anymore.. cos i DO NOT NOE WHO CAME UP WIF THIS CRAP IDEA.... chld be u... chld be her...

darn... i hate this...

Working~~~

I am finally working!!!!! hoho... been working for a month and 16 days... so far so good... environment is alrite... boss not bad... and the pay is pretty good considering the bad ecomony rite now... hehehe...

but i realize i am constantly on a shopping spree... shop n shop n shop... watson also can shop... groceries also can... die la... still owe bro and dear moolah... die die die... haiz... tink bro 2k... dear 2k.... hahaha... i also dunoe how can so much... oh well... paying off as much as i can...

my wgt only drop a wee bit and cos of this issue we have a few quarrels... or u can say i gotten numerous scoldings from him... piangz... sibei xianz.. i noe is my bad but i cant help it.. haiz... sibei xian ar.. how how how!!!

2 more days to cny

oh god.... i am so rotting at home.... i feel like a slug.... i juz dun wanna move... is weird... i feel so unmotivated.... :(.... dun really wanna go out... mayb cos i was tinking of the my money situation... it is so pathetic rite now... broke broke broke.... :( freaking pathetic...

i was out buying some cny goodies... *on him* haha... i window shop abit... i realized... i dun have any mood to buy any of the stuff.... cos i tink i wan to save my $$ for rainy days or outings wif my dearies... but it juz felt freakin weird tat i din get anything.. haiz

another note... i REALLY NEED TO LOSE WGT... like freaking soon... my dearie wedding in mar.. so is my bro's... oh god.... how how how... been joggin... doing some exercise here and there... trying to reduce my carbo intake... BUT whenever i am moody i start munching... this is so shitty... :( .... i noe he is pretty disappointed in me... he tried various way to get me to exercise... haiz... shit... i am feeling like a failure rite now... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :'((((

i guess i am really very moody rite now... when i booze...if in a good mood... i juz get a lil high.. bad mood.. i will start to tear... and i am teaaring rite now.. shit shit shit... no wonder winnie dearie was saying... she worries tat i will break down cos i am not working rite now... to her... it is even worse den juz breaking up... i kind of understand wat she meant by tat... cos i am feeling worse den juz breaking up... :(((

side track : i kinda of love clazziquai... cool music... their music playing rite now... hear this now michelle quek blog some time back... den i hunt aro for their music... mostly quite cheery tunes.. BUT in korean.. some in eng though... haha

when am i gonna get a job... haiz... i am feeling so bad rite now.. :(.... so insecure tat i am huggin my toy giraffe to slp now... haha... btw.. it is really cute.. purple in colour wif a cheery smile on its face...

sighzzzzzz

one of the most miserable day in my life

today is one the most miserable day in my life.... mayb is cos i am cope up in my hse in my room most of the time... i dunoe... i am uber miserbale and depressed... many pple tell me... do temp la... do this do tat... HELLOOOO if the position was reversed.. will u do temp... when they want to bind u for at least more den 3 mths... how to tell ur future employer tat... sorry leh... i can only join after 3 mths... blablabla... den come the idiotic talk.... take lower pay la... HELLOOO... i already edited my expected pay... i place it lower liao... wat u wan me to do... i send resumes for 1k plus job??? i received calls tat say... hmm... i like ur resume but u seem over qualified for this job... blablabla... i hear also xianz.... u all not in my shoes... dun comment too much.. pls... use ur pea sized brain and think wat u will do if u are jobless at this timin... dun bloody hell shoot u mouth off and say y i din do this din do tat... it is BLOODY HELL IRRITATING!!!! i din ask for this.. i din wish for this to happen...

i am bcoming terribly insecure... shit... i hate this... yes i have my frds... but... i really dun noe how to express this feeling out... i really dun... it is hard for them to understand as they are not in my shoes... not at home facing the 4 walls everyday wif a parnoid mum naggin at minor stuff.... i sick of acting so strong in front of others... taking their critisms like i dun care wat they tink... i do care wat they tink abt me... *sadness*

*takes tissue and wipes her face... :(*

i wan to cuddle up in some1's arms.... i wan to be away from all these...

1st POST!!! Muhaha

well..... i always wanted to set up a blog on my own.... and after some arhmmm... alcoholic help.... here i am.... doing this... haha.... linda in her lala land.... i was tinking abt this name in the afternoon... so fitting for me.... i initially wanted confessions of a shopholic.... welll.... it was taken... haha....

let's see.... to date... i am jobless for 2 mths and 15 days.... this is a feat for me as i normally hunt and get jobs pretty fast... oh well.... i take it as a well deserved break.... i work non-stop for like... hmmm.... 6-7 years.... haha... i noe is not a lot but well... to this soon to be 27-year old gal.... it's pretty longggggggggggg.............

was talking to some of my frds online.... they were pretty encouraging... haha.... they do noe it's hard to get jobs nowadays... so i was pretty glad for their support.... actually i guess i pretty lucky... to have frds who are sooooo supportive.... some of my frds treat me me meals here and there... bought me stuff.... i mean... i am seriously grateful.... i do feel loved.... i noe they care and they wan to cheer me up... at times i was seriously moody.... cos... i kinda of hate not working.... i am some1 who needs human interface... it is DAMN BORING TO BE AT HOME DAY IN DAY OUT!!!!

okie... anywayz... i was reading "Chicken Soup for the Dog Lover's Soul".... i was tearing like nobody biz.... it's pretty amazing wat dogs can do when they put their mind to it.... i do wan a dog when i have my own hse.... haha... my dream is to have a cat and a dog livin in the same hse... hoho.... do hope it comes true... i read this in the book....

Judgement Day

On Judgement Day Saint Peter stands,
A list of virtues in his hands.
As all the souls in silence wait
To see who'll pass through heaven's gate.
"You''ll enter first," he says, "If you
can swear with your heart was always true.
And tou were constant to the end,
A steadfast, loyal, devoted friend.
Never spiteful, never mean,
Unchanging through good times and lean,
With no desire but thus: to be
allowed to love eternally."
And this is why Saint Peter's hand
Throws wide the heavenly portals, and
With wagging tails and shining eyes
The dogs walk into paradise

~Millicent Bobleter

how not to be touched???? *Smiles*